A lonely september ..

I was confusing myself. I don't know why but I was incredibly sad when two of my friends just quit the University because they want to continue their study n different way. When comes to friends, this is all I got. I cry a lot. I've being madly sad. Anastasia is my beautiful lady. She is just sweet and nice. She loves joking aswell. Before she move out the hostel, there's something messy wrong thing inside me. But I hide it at first. Then she came to my room just to give me a goodbye, and my eyes started to cry, then she hugs me and we're crying together. It just so hard to let her go. I never even enough enjoying my time with her. Another fellow is my gentle guy, Jodieh. I really appreciate this guy. He's made my september turns to lonely. There's a song by plain white t's - A lonely september. I just remember him when I heard this song, I don't know why. We both got something, I knew. Same with the girl, on that day they move out, he texted me saying goodbye and tears were all there. It just like I don't wanna feel this way anymore. It was annoying me much. I had said this for his fancy shadow & God, if this world is not ours, maybe heaven will be :( ......