MESAPOL tear my heart :(

First of all, I can write here becos I have my 3 three days holiday from that damn camp. Seripusly, I don't like that camp :/ it sucks living there. The people, the teachers, the soldiers, the staff, the food.. everything did not make sense on me. There's one month to go I will live on that camp. I don't know what to say. Everydays I don't feel that calm. It always sad thing on my soul & it hurts me. I missed everyone one my hometown -.- Okay enough for the sad things, let turns to the quiet funny things. I have new nickname on that camp. People call me " ado " ;D hahaaa. First time I heard people call me that name, yeaah it's awkward. But not anymore. That's my new name :) At least there's something I remember about him everyday :) But the point is I don't feel okay on that camp. I hope I will strong live there, even deep inside my heart I know I'm not strong enough :/I don't like it when the teachers said they give us a positive value but they don't even show show the positive value for us. Some of the teachers call us "monkey". It's that a positive value ? grrrrrrrrrr :3 depressedd. It's okay I have my God. That's the only way I can feel calm *sigh* .. wish me happy guys. All my hopes & luck's wishes always for u all guys. Much love.