Down on life -,-

One week ago I had received my very own result for SPM. The final result from my highschool exam. Which everybody have it too. People said it was a good result but for me it`s not insteadly. Abviously not good =.= I did not felt ungrateful or something but it wasn't good for me anymore. I had a disenchantment day on that day. I got 2 uncredit subjects, which mean I got D for it. At the end of the day, I have to accept it. That was the things that came out from my hard work study. I think I did the best. I guessed. But that's all I got. I need to accept it to appreciate myself. right ? Deep inside I felt grateful & thank for God for give me that result. I know there was some reason behind this gift. For me there are two reasons of this gift [ the result ] the first part, is a good reason. Luckily I still can got 4As. Before this I never reached for 2As. I remembered I just got 1As for my trial. The A was my English. Unfortunately, I got a spoiled grade on my last result for my English subject. It's B+. I can get A for it -.- but yeah I didn't did the best that day. Can u think how I can stop my writting when I was in the middle of journey of my story, then I was unconfident for my story & the times left was just a half hour & I started a new page for 360 words of story =.= I'm sure my grammar was messed up. But thank god I still can get B+. It can be a lesson for u'all. Actually I just told the second reasons :] .. Well this is not where the storylines end. I got my new vision. For the new page of my life. I revolved I failed for it. It's on my own thought instead it was passed though. I`m waiting for some form from Uni. If it was a suitable form then I go for it. If not I will make a pra-diploma programme. Before all of that, I will seduce for Matriculation A level study. I will. I would be honoured if I can get two years programme. I don`t care. I will make my move. Take lesson from my story. It can be a very useful lesson for u all. Its normal right? when someone make mistakes, she/he can make a very good lesson for everyone :) I`m happy I can be the one. But I`m not suggest u to do so :D Wish me luck for the rest of my journey ~~ this is the list of my result. Don't laugh :) Malaysian Language : A+ English : B+ Mathematics : A- History : A- Islam Education : A- Art : B Biology : C Physics : C Chemistry : D Additional Mathematics : D PASSED THOUGH !