This lately or maybe currently, I`m having the most worst terribly madly badly damn day. Yes. That`s it. It just kinda horrible thing that I have to think for. It`s about my future. I can`t get it why I don`t have that strength yet. I need that strength. It`s time for me to shine. It`s time for me to explore the world. It`s time for me to find myself alone. It`s time for me to get my real life forever. I need to done this thing for my family. I wished I have that strength. Every single person who had read this, I hope u guys would give me a prayer. I really need it. ='= ......