I just started the week on my new school at monday. All the terrible feelings jump on my mind. First day, I feel uninvited to that school. OR maybe I don`t know the discipline is. I am just a new student & I know I`m a big girl already. I don`t want to comment about that. That is about the ppl on my new school. I`m not afraid or something with them but though I`m afraid to feel that I am not happy in that school. Becos I know if I`m not happy then I don`t think so I can study well. I really look forward to the surrounding. That just one thing. The other thing is I still cannot decide to choose the field I goes for. Either on Science or Kemanusiaan ?.? that was the most horrible thing. If I don`t take the science then all my dream that I had created before will gone just like that. It`s like I need to give up to reach my dream -'- But when I take it then it will be the most horrible thing I have done. Every people know that, that field was hard to score with. I don`t want the same thing happen to stpm which I didn`t make it well on spm. The other point is, when I take the kemanusiaan, It`s .. I don`t know. What can I say, I don`t have any basic on it. It`s make me feel so worst. I can`t breathe easily I guess but I have to breathe. Almost all of these days on this year, I think I still cannot find the way how I can stop my stress. =/= it`s getting worst and worst everyday. YA ALLAH give me some hidayah. I really need it. I need the strength to fight all of this. I knew I was born to be somebody !